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Saturday, December 04, 2004

A Thought...Soul Mates?

THREE KINDS OF SOUL MATES
Did you know there are three main kinds of soulmates? They are: Karmic,
Companion and Twin Flames. Study the different kinds and discover which
category your soul mate falls under. This will give you a broader understanding
of why he or she has come into your life. To help you, I will explain the
differences.

1.KARMIC SOUL MATE
The karmic soul mate experience is very common. You can have many of
these in alifetime. They enter your life to teach you an important lesson.
Karmic soul mates can be co-workers, family members or close friends.
Sometimes karmic soul mate relationships can be romantic in nature; but
if so,they won't last long. That is because these relationships are solely
meant for learning lessons and for growth rather than for obtaining a life
partner. Another point to remember about karmic soul mates, as well as
other kinds of soul mates, is that each one, comes into our lives for a
reason and to teach us a lesson about ourselves.

2.COMPANION SOUL MATE
A companion soul mate relationship can be a relationship that is romantic
in nature. It involves your wife/husband or someone you are intimate with.
Oftentimes, these soul mates are not destined to be with us forever but,
like Karmic soul mates, are brought into our lives for a purpose. It is
possible to spend a lifetime with your companion soul mate if you haven't
met your twin soul. However, when the twin soul is found, the companion
soulmate relationship could suffer. When this happens, the companion soulmate
relationship is generally short-lived or, if it continues, a non-satisfying one.
However, this is no reason to jump ship when it happens. Remember, there
is a reason your companion soul mate is in your life (for example, so you can
raise children together). When your twin soul comes into your life and you
are in a companion soul mate relationship, it is important that you take
things slowly. It may be that the companion soul mate relationship will come
to an end-or it may not. One thing you must keep in mind is that ending
an existing relationship solely because one feels one has found one's twin
soul is never a good idea, because over time you will realize that both
associations are meant to be and both have an important role in your life.
An interesting aspect of the companion soulmate relationship is that we put
more of our energies into it. The karmic soul mate relationship tends to go
at an easy pace, without much effort from either partner, as it does with
twin souls. The companion soulmate bond requires more work on our parts
to sustain a healthy, loving atmosphere.

3.TWIN FLAMES
This is the highest form of soul mate connection. Your twin soul is
your other half; to find your twin soul is like finding yourself. We go
through our life searching and searching, and what we don't realize is
that we are looking for someone just like us. Sometimes, we find them
in this life and, other times, in other lives. I believe they are always
around, but for some reason it is not apparent. Perhaps we close our
eyes to them. We don't listen and observe. We go through life at
such a hectic pace we don't stop and take in things that would otherwise
be apparent, so the presence of a soulmate could hit us flat in the face
and we wouldn't even know it. This is sad, because we have missed that
one, rare opportunity for total bliss and happiness.

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IDENTIFYING A SOUL MATE RELATIONSHIP
In order to find your soul mate, you must know what to look for. I
have compiled the eleven most important traits in recognizing your soul mate.
Read them to helpyou decide who your own soul mate(s) is.

1.ACCEPTANCE
Your soul mate must accept you for who you are. He or she must
accept your weaknesses as well as your strengths. Your soul mate
does not try to change you, nor do you try to change them. He or
she lets you be yourself, for the more you are yourself, the stronger
your bond with your soul mate has a chance of becoming.

2.ENCOURAGEMENT
Your soul mate makes you feel good about yourself. He or she
never criticizes,only encourages. If they cannot do this, then
they are not your soul mate.

3.NURTURING
Your soul mate cares about you and what happens to you. He is
the first to be by your side in accomplishment and defeat. She
picks you up when others throw you down. He nurtures your spirit
so you can roll with the punches, no matter where they fall.

4.FRIENDSHIP
Your soul mate is your best friend in the entire world. She or he
laughs with you, cries with you, sings with you. They are there for
you when life throws you those bad curves; they are there for you when
you surpass your highest expectations of yourself. A soul mate will
understand you and give you what you want and need without hesitation.
She will make you feel at home, comfortable and at ease. As you
would with any friend, take the relationship slow. Savor each milestone
of firsts: the first time your eyes meet, the first time his lips brush
against yours, the first afternoon spent together walking through the
park or along the seashore or even just in your own backyard. You have
to remember that if you end up together, these "firsts" will be ingrained
in your memory forever. Cherish them.

5.GENEROSITY
Your soul mate is generous. He gives freely of his time and his possessions.
She will ditch whatever she is doing to be with you. He will give you
your heart's desires. She will give you her heart and soul, if need be.

6.CONVERSATIONALIST
Soul mates are interested in what each other have to say. My soul mate
and I would spend hours contemplating the mysteries of the universe.
Since we thought alike, we never did stop talking. We talked about our
past, our present and our future. As we had so many things in common,
each of us was interested in what the other had to say.

7.PREMONITIONS
You may have premonitions of your future soul mate in dreams.
Whether they are when you are asleep or when you are in meditation,
you will picture your soul mate as if he or she were standing in front
of you. You will note the color of their hair, the sound of their voice,
their way of walking. You will picture your soul mate as you want them
to be. If you are fortunate enough to be able to do this-and it can
happen anytime, anywhere-remember it. For, in time, your soulmate
will appear in front of you just as you envisioned.

8.POSITIVE KARMA
One of the main ingredients for a successful soul mate relationship
lies in thepower of karma. In layman's terms, karma is basically the
theory that whatever you do, there will be another event to follow that
is directly consequential to your actions. Therefore, the law of karma
teaches us that what we do today may come back to haunt us tomorrow.
How does this apply to the soulmate phenomenon?
NOTE: If you are in a bad relationship, and you continue to remain in that
relationship, you are setting up a path of bad karma for yourself
because of the negative energies that arise. Once you learn to set up
a shield against this negativity, good karma will infiltrate your life and
open your soul to a promising and healthy soul mate relationship. Not
until this happens will you ever receive a satisfactory soul mate union.
Both parties must bring good karma into the relationship. You have to
remember that we are all souls, just pure energy "visiting" this planet;
and we have been here many times. Neither partner can come from a
place where negativity is present, or the soul mate experience just won't
occur.

9.SPIRITUAL CONNECTION
You will feel a connection with your soul mate, as if you had
known him or her before. You will feel an energy radiating between
you. You will look into each other's eyes and see each other's soul,
for that is where the true soul mate connection lies. Not enough
can be said about the spiritual connection between soul mates. It is
the most important quality in a soul mate relationship. You will feel
this in the depths of your heart and soul. Without it, the soul mate
relationship is doomed.

10.UNCONDITIONAL LOVE
Your soul mate will love you more than anything or anyone he has
loved in his entire life, although he will give you freedom to be who
you are. "You cannot possess a soul mate any more than you can
possess a person in your physical world," says Robert Egby, author
of Thank You For The Flowers. "Soul mates are free and must always
be so. Love cannot be possessed or controlled. Soul mates are together
because they share an unconditional love, a mutual vibration. There
are no exceptions."

11.PERFECT TIMING
Other things come into play in seeking your soul mate that
you might not count on. One is perfect timing. If it isn't
the right time for you and your soul mate to be together, it
will likely not happen.

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DO YOU ONLY HAVE ONE SOUL MATE?
I have learned in doing research that many people
do not believe in soul mates. They say they have searched and
searched for the one person who will make them happy, and have
given up. They have come to the conclusion they do not believe
there is one, and only one, person who is perfect for them. They
are absolutely right. There is no one person who is your soul mate
because, as I noted earlier, there are at least three types of soul
mates. Those who do not believe at all are missing an important part
of their life experience, for it is our search for our soul mate that
makes our spiritual journey complete. The bottom line is, don't give up.
Our soul mates are out there. Perhaps, they are right under our noses
and we don't even realize it.

Have you found your soulmate???
Personally I have found some relating to the categories I just reveiwed with you,
and if you have found them, don't take any of it for granted and don't be a fool.
Because when you look on it, it hurts when they aren't there anymore

            xox Toodlez Hun xox
                           Lotsa Love All
                     *Hu9 Hu9 k!$$ k!$$*

                                                              'SSDD'
          Prancer/ T!K T0C/FireFly/Labelle

                                  -----Donna-----                    =====D-Lux=====

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Friday, December 03, 2004

...Mistakes...

!!!!!HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY HUNTER!!!!!

Ok so I have made alot of mistakes in my life...but do you ever realize that its not after those mistakes are made that you regret them...its after time has passed by, doesnt have an actual timeline as to when it passes by, but its shortly after some time has passed. It actually wasn't until today that I realized that...sadly it was while I was on the bus downtown to Marvel to get my hair done for semi tonight....which is rather depressing. But mistakes...Im not really quite positive as to what they can be classifyed as...good or bad...I mean you learn from them sure, but are they ever really good...coz...mistakes are well...mistakes. But with mistakes, can any of them ever be forgiven, from the simplest of simple mistakes to the largest or large mistakes. Can they ever be fully forgiven, or is it a burden one must live with for the duration of their lives? I mean, mistakes aren't intentional, so then why hold it against a person...but some i guess mistakes are intentionally planned, but end up back firing in the planners face causing it to end up a mistake...I mean what do you say to a person like that? Sure you can stay mad at them forever, or you can easily forgive them, but either way it's never going to leave that person's mind as to what happened. It just won't happen, no matter how much you pray or how hard you try to correct your wrong doing or even how much you wish, that "mistake" is always going to stay with all those peoples, through out your life and theirs. So how do you correct your wrong doing...sure you can admit to it, but alot of the times, I find it just makes problems elasticize (grow bigger) and there is almost no point it hoping things will be fine again....so how would you go about correcting your problems/ "mistakes" without the admitting wrong doing to elasticize your problem. Im it seems like I am rambling on about worthless nothingness to some of you, but everyone will come to a point in their lives where this topic will eventually pop up into existance, and wouldn't it be better to know what to do when it does rather than to know nothing about it at all? Would it not help any to have at least some knowledge on the particular topic at hand rather than sit there and have no knowledge what so ever and in the process of correcting your "mistake", you happen to make another and by doing that you have your problem elasticize.....it is just a wonder, but its also a question, and its one most people dpn't have the answer to, and if they do, its just to late for them to act upon it, bcoz things will be to deep for you to uncover and get a solution for....
But back to the main topic...how would you go about correcting a "mistake" (or in other cases and sometimes in my own case) "mistakes" without revealing the causing problem and your wrong doings that lead up to the "mistake/mistakes" that may make things? Is it better just to go on with life and carry this burden with you, knowing that you never told those how you felt or about it...I mean you can go like that but is it logical to carry on like that? Is it logical to act as though nothing has happened and live life with the burden of what you've done knowing things could've worked out for the best but because of your invulnerability and lack of courage & self esteem, you just paraded though all that, maybe hoping things will get better?
In my case, its a mix of both of those scenes..sure I'll do most anything thr first time, and I'll tell of authority figures and what not, but it takes ALOT of courage to admit the wrong of something...how does someone over come past experiences of making things worse by admitting "mistakes"? Is it at all possible to apologize for something you HAVE said or done, with out actaully saying what u said or did???
Thats actually one question that keeps lingering in my head, day in and day out but it one question i have yet to find an answer for...any ideas from anyone would be greatly appreciated...anyways Travis is here, so I'd better jet for the time being so we both can get ready for semi and my brother can ofcourse get some time online...
So please, everyone and everyone, leave answers, comments even past experiences and ideas, it would help out a great deal.

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don�t bold is false.

01. I miss somebody right now.
02. I don�t watch much TV these days.
03. I love olives.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
07. I love to play video games.
08. I have tried marijuana.
09. I have seen at least one porn movie.
10. I have been in a threesome.
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
12. I believe honesty is >>usually<< the best policy.
13. I have acne free skin.
14. I like & respect Al Sharpton.
15. I curse frequently.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have a hobby.
18. I have been told I: have an applebottom(women) or am packing(men).
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
20. I am really, really smart.(in different subjects)
21. I have never broken someone�s bones.
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
23. I hate the rain.
24. I am paranoid at times.
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, & scar-free.
26. I need money right now!
27. I love Sushi.
28. I talk really, really fast [sometimes].
29. I have fresh breath in the morning.(after i brusth them)
30. I have semi-long hair.(possibly...)
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
32. I have at least one brother &/or one sister.
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs(females) or face(males) on a regular basis.
35. I have a twin.
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
37. I couldn�t survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look sometimes.
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last six months.
40. I know how to cornrow.
41. I am usually pessimistic.
42. I have a lot of mood swings.
43. I think prostitution should be legalized.
44. I think Britney Spears is hot.
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past.
46. I have a hidden talent.
47. I am always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
48.I think that I�m popular.

49. I am currently single.
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex.(haha long story behind that lol)
51. I enjoy talking on the phone.
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
53. I love to shop.(when I have money)
54. I would rather shop than eat.
55. I would classify myself as ghetto.
56. I am bourgie & have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
57. I am obsessed with my livejournal.
58. I don�t hate anyone. I dislike them.
59. I am a pretty good dancer.( i used to take dance so yea...lol)
60. I don�t think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
61. I am completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
62. I have a cell phone.
63. I believe in [a] God.
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
65. I have passed out drunk in the past six months.
66. I love drama.
67. I have never been in a real relationship before.
68. I have rejected someone before.
69. I currently have a crush on someone.
70. I have no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life.
71. I want to have children in the future.
72. I have changed a diaper before.
73. I have called the cops on a friend before.
74. I bite my nails.
75. I am a member of the Tom Green Fan Club.
76. I am not allergic to anything.
77. I have a lot to learn.
78. I have dated someone at least ten years older or younger.
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube�s newest "Friday" movie.
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes.
81. I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
82. I have at least five away messages saved.
83. I have tried alcohol before.
84. I have made a move on a friend�s significant other in the past.
85. I own the "South Park" movie.
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on livejournal.
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds & the bees" with a neighbor or friend.
88. I enjoy some country music.
89. I would die for my [real] best friends.
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
92. I am [sometimes] obsessive, anal retentive, & a perfectionist.
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals & all.
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick�s "Children�s Story".
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants & I like it.
98. I have dated a close friend�s ex.
99. I have cut myself before.
100. I am happy at this moment.

Lotsa Love All
              xox Toodlez Hun xox
                                                   'SSDD'
             *Hu9 Hu9 k!$$ k!$$*

Prancer/T!C T0K/Labelle/Me

---Donna--- ===D-Lux===

Posted at 04:21 pm by Speechless
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Thursday, December 02, 2004

The day before...

OK, so first things first...Leigh and Alishia(dont realli knoe if thats proper spelling..sooo many diff ways of spelling that name that im confuzzled)...
ok well next time when you drag me away...and i turn around to tell emily "bye i cant stay im being dragged away..." please stay there
with me, so that right after i say that i dont turn around and say "wait
up.." while running after you...it realli takes away from being "dragged
away".
OMG...Brian im sorry about not coming over last night...but happy
17th b-day again...ill call ya later tonight...
*sigh* im quite bored...im sitting at home right now..waiting for my
dad to tell me its tome to go..to barrie...yet again...to go see my stupid dental surgeon...i hate anything to with dentistry because frankly,
i dont like the way they're generally all guys and their sticking their
hands in your mouth, i mean ive actually had one guy stick his hands
in my mouth without any gloves on...*shudders* i really dont
wanna knoe what he did be he put those hands of his into mi mouth...
i really dont...
but wouldnt that be odd...have some one come up to you and be like
"so how was your day...what all did you do?"...and then ofcourse reply
"o well it was ok...i had an appointment to go to and while i was their
i had a few guys in my mouth"...thats just...well wrong, so hopefully
no one ever words it like that to anyone...coz thats rather creepy
...*slight smirk* in an odd and twisted way...lol
Ok, so semi is tomorrow...and im leaving school early tomorrow
to head down to marvel and get mi hair done, then Travis is
coming over, and around 6 Brian is coming over and we're all
gonna walk to the school...go team us lmao...
thou, Trav..we still need to go get that stuff lmao...coz we dont realli
have much time left lol, i really wanna see that lol

So OMG I FOUND MY CELL LOL...realli i did, i decided to clean under
mi bed when i woke up and to mi sudden surprise i found mi cell after
...well lets just say i lost it in the summer lmao, all i need now is the
charger to mi other cell and im all set...either way both mi cells rock
coz their bother flip phones lmao...but i like mi LG better coz well it
has all mi phone numbers stored in it.

On to another topic quickly...how do you know when a guys likes you? I
mean i like 2 guys, and i knoe the one likes me...but im unsure of the other...the only thing is, the one guy that does like me, i wanna set him
up with someone else coz they'd make an absolute perfect couple...but
as for the other guy...well im lost...lol...no realli i am...so realli how do u knoe when a guy likes you?
ACK!! Tomorrow is Hunters b-day...HAHA HUNTSY U GONNA FINALLY
BE 16!!! lol....only thing is i cant go to his b-day coz tomorrow is semi..
.and i promised ppls i would go to semi this yr...so im kinda screwed..
right there, o well if i end up mob\ving in with mi gp's we'll be able to
chyll aight hunts? lol
So yea...i have his gift ready..well actaully i sent it out already lmao....
so you shoudl get it in the mail hunts my man...also...im gonna give
you a pic of me in mi outfit for semi lol...once in a life time thinger
lol...thou ive gotten alot of great feed back on the outfit im
wearing...GO TEAM ME!....lol
O shizzle fits....i g2g to barrie again right now...so ill wyl

xox Toodlez and Adieu Hun xox
Lotsa Love All

*Hu9 Hu9 k!$$ k!$$*
                   'SSDD'
   Prancer/T!C T0K/FireFly
     ~Labelle~ lol

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Saturday, November 27, 2004

TOTALLY FRICKEN NAMELESS!!!!(just a thought) lol couldnt think of a Title all lol

Ah Ha!! Its me again!! Ah Ha Ah Ha Ha Ha!! lol ya actually
im at
mi gp's rite now, and im talking online to Jen-Jen, Clarence, My friend Morgan from Barrie, janelle, Nelke, Shaun, Damon, Nicole, John, Kat, Shawn, James and Rita..GO TEAM ME!!
Ok so stuff is going on...lots of it good now lol...and
semi
is in
a matter of days...AND I HAVE TO GO...onyl coz im bound
to a promise..meh *shrugs* o well could be fun (actully
should be but yea
u knoe lmao)...though im not wearing a dress, but mi
outfit should
rock (in mi mind non the less) lol.
ACK!! I got new boots and i love them...only coz
well their mine now, they're new and they got fuzzies
on the inside!! :D...ehe fuzzies!
Ya also sorry for the delay in any current/recent entries....ive
been busy...with stuff...like wallowing in self pitty,
feeling sorry for myself, school, probs w ppls, job
hunting, over reacting drama (hense the "I AM The
DRAMA QUEEN" in mi msn name) and some other things..
also trying to rekindle old candles (metaphorcially speaking...basically lost emotions, relationships
and stuff)

But then it occured to me, thanx to Travis (thank u travis)...Also..with the shit ppl say...meh i
personally dont
care, i used to then i thought, well its only High School,
the actual odds of me staying in touch with alot of
these ppls are pretty
slim, considering i dont want too, lol, alot of them
arent worth any time (to me, but to others it is
prolly totally diff) Secondly,
were all almost halfway through our senior year,
which brings to the end of our high school career
and to bigger bolder part of our life,
so why bother with all the petty immatureness going
on, i mean high school is only 4 short years in our
life, and though it may not seem like it at the
moment, it really is, i mean when we all are older,
and have jobs and are leading happy lives with
out all the "teenage trauma" and look back at high
school (heaven forbid our flash backs lol) we'll
all just sit there and laugh and just think about all
thats changed, and wonder why we did what we did
at certain times, so why bother...high school,
just like the spice girls, nano-pets,
devil sticks, polly pockets, etc. is just a phaze
in our lives we
are going through..so to everyone who is worrying
about a fight
with a friend, or bad acne, or no dates and stuff,
or not being cool enough, DONT WORRY!, theres nothing
to worry about, ots just a
phaze and the ppl u meet and things u do after high
school are to be valued, things now, well some are
good some are bad, dont dwell in the past, live
the present and thrive for the continous race to the
future!
Trust me, when you look back on this when your older
ull have
laughs and u'll wonder why u ever worried about that
pop quiz or the gossip and word vomit ppl spread...
just get over it...ppl like that, there not worth your
time and effort.

Just have fun with your life right now, and treat
all your friends well, just coz u may not be friends
with them in the future doesnt
mean u arent changing their lives as we speak right
now...just
embrace live and go with the flow....and have fun...
if someone says things about you, just nod, agree and
be like, "and the point your trying to make is?"...if
you give ppl the satisfactory of getting
under your skin, their gonna keep doing it, and if
you just blow it
off and they keep doing it...then they need a better
life coz if ur
soo bad and all they can do is bad mouth you....then
wouldnt that make you some kind of ideal person in
their life or that their jealous or maybe the only
way to gain respect for their self is put you down...
i dont know but them ppls need lives...even if that
means finding and shit person...and fucking them
constantly (least then their mouths
will be busy with something other than rambling on
and bad mouthiny you..but if someone does just fuck
and bad mouth...um yea thats kinda dirty...no
offence but thats mi opinion...)

Anyways before i indulge in further and deeper
ramblings in the
topic i better change it...
So, yes..o Christmas is just around the corner
which signify's the coming of the end of the
semester...which may signify the possibility of
me moving in with mi gp's (go team me....and
to those whom dont like me...ill send u a invite where
you can all get together and
party coz im leaving...sound fun? ooooooooo we can
even have a
Donna bashing...WOOT WOOT lol..)
But yes Christ mas is nearing...and i still havent
found a job to
get money so i can get ppls Christmas gifts...:(
im sorry ppl
Hmmmm...though i do wonder what i'll be getting...........*thinks*
EEEKK Hunters B-Day on is on December 3rd and i
dont know what to
get him...its hard and sad, i mean ive known him
almost my whole
life and stuff but i cant shop for him?? how sad..
Emily..wanna go shopping with me??? lol
To further the upcoming events, friday is semi
AND Hunters bday,
the 8th is the X-Mas concert at school, and the
15th is the day i
go to toronto with the school to see Cats-the
musical...GO TEAM ME!!
lol
Also i have recently discovered that Jenny is mi
"alter-ego" lol...
fun stuff lol
and that i have a date with Julie lmao...haha so who
was bringing
what again lol
My workload at school has been growing but thats
what you guess
when u miss (skip half of that time) 3 weeks of
school and now ur trying to get good grades...hard
work but in the end it'll be worth it...
Im tired and Jenny keeps telling me to go to bed...
hmmm should i
go to bed..??
Actually im forgetting ,ost of what i wanna say so
yea i think im might, just after i finish up...*nods*
yup yup
So yea i should be updating more frequently..OMG I
THINK IM GETTING INTERNET IN MI ROOM!!!!! SOOOOOOOOOO
TOTALLY FRICKEN AWSOME!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyways im gonna go coz i have to get up early tomorrow,
Im coming
home for anyone who actaully cares lol jk jk...but i am
coming back home coz its sunday and school is monday lol
But i leave with a question..........How do you tell
someone your sorry? And that you broke a promise for
them that you can never
replace for certain reason's? BUt you cant apologize
to this
person coz of certain "boundary's" pertaining the main
cause of
it all, and you wont cross those "boundaries" out of
respect?
just something i wanna knoe...please any ideas would
be another
step up the ladder for me...
but im off...so please give me any ideas so i can be
on my merry
way lol

     xox Toodlez and Adieu Hun xox
                Lotsa Love All
                      *Hu9 Hu9 K!$$ K!$$*

       PRANCER/T-SPOON/T!C T0K
                                                                                   'SSDD'

ps; btw does anyone knoe how m&m's and smarties get the "perfect"
candi sheel around the chocolate...or better yet the choclate inside the candi shell...? lol just a thought

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Tuesday, August 03, 2004

Dedicated To Jake Chrysler

Its been quite sometime since Jakie boy but ive bin writin this for a while, too bad it wasnt easier to build a ladder to heaven to see you again but iguess this'll do so i guess keepin ya in ma heart will have to to, mehb one day i will actually build a ladder te heaven and i will see you again...to bad Stevie had to get in th way

"Dedicated to Jake Chrysler"

Walking very merrily,
to our secluded spot.
We'd spend the day together,
on our fishing dock.

Years of walking together,
to that specific site.
We shared so many memories,
that was to be our life.

We hadn't the faintest idea,
that things were soon to end.
No more trips to the dock,
or future newly weds.

It happened oh so quickly,
that i didn't knoe wut to do.
I realized a moment later,
I was lying on the tracks.

Laying there on the steel,
so immobilized and still.
But then i heard the train,
approaching with a chill.

That the very next moment,
I was quite surprised.
To find miself cradled in ur arms,
up the boarding hill.

Soon we made it to the top,
we heard the train approach.
You lowered me safetly to the ground,
but your foot just slipped.

Tumbling thru the tall grass,
rite bak down the hill.
I let out a scream of shock,
as you landed on ur back.

I remember you looking up at me,
with terror on u face.
The train fastly approaching,
with nothing left to do.

So instead you loved,
and you said goodbye.
And with that the train came,
and took ur precious life.

You left me standing on the hill,
with nothing but pain and tears.
And to this i wish with all mi heart,
that it was me not you.

But mehb one day we'll see each,
and hopefully very soon.
I love you kid with all mi heart,
and hope u still love me too.

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well toodlez jakester......and i hope we meet again one day....but till then , ill forever and for always keep u in heart
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O btw happi 16th to Zuki
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toodlez everyone...im off, SEE YA JAKIE!!!!
Toodles and Adieu......

           Luv ya'll
                         Prancer
                                                    'SSDD'

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Wednesday, July 21, 2004

you lie..........YOU LOOSE!!!!

so whats the big D wit every1 lyin these days? I mean is this some kinda new fad with EVERYONE in the world that juss happened to pass me by? Bcuzz if so>>>I HATE IT!!!!!!
Im sorry but I hate liars, i really do. But lying seems to be one of the biggest growing most popular growing fads in the world rite now....or who knoes>>>mehb even tha universe! but I dunt see why its such a big d te everyone!!!! Lying well....all i can say is that lyin is wrong....and honestly ive had enuff!

I mean its so frequent now a days....i mean strangers lie to you, aqquaintances lie to you.....and to make mattas worse FRIENDS and FAMILY lie to you? so wat is left to do when everyone lies to you? I mean i used to trust ppl but now...i have a hard time...trusting anyone! Guys, even mi friends n family now!

I mean im an honest person! TRUST ME....IM A VERY HONEST PERSON!!! lmao....no realli thou...i prolly get into so many fights w ma friends bc im so honest.....and i knoe for a fact i got into so many fights w Han b-cuzz im, well as ppl put it "brutally honest"....but im not juss sayin thats the only reason i have ppl gettin mad at me...lol....i mean mi mouth has a mind of its own....and i do stupid thinsg lol....but i guess things r changin....i mean i barely talk now cept on msn n stuff.....well i dunno bout stupid things lol....and as for the whole brutally honest thing....well i dunno...i guess if everyone feels that lyin is the way to go i may juss follow...i mean i dunt wanna coz ive always bin lied to but...everytime i tell the truth and am honest all i ever hear is...Stop Lying....ok i mean when im being honest, i get called a liar! So yea i guess lyin is the way te go...
I mean i woodnt lie to save mi life but things n times change i guess....
i only ever lie when im protecting someone...or te save ones life lol...eh hunter?
But being honest only seems to get ppl hating me....so i dunno anymore....but then again....neither wood u if ya friends lied te make ye look like a bad guy...or even if ya father lies te make ya look like a bad guy....unfortunatly liars gets what comin for them lol....i mean mehb if i keep juss doin wut im doin then well.....as Mr.C wood say...."beware of the returning arrow....and what goes around comes around...." so i guessill juss see how much of that is tru....but for all of you readin this blog entry....juss lemme knoe wut u think i shood do....
Shood i stay being miself and continuing being brutally honest to ppl no matter the cost- - - - -or shood i start follin the crowds n juss let lies flow from mi mouth like a hungry waterfall flowing over the top of the highest mountains?
I wanna knoe ya opinions everyone....juss leave ur opinions on tha tag board or make a commment to ma blog entry...eitha way i juss wanna knoe ya opinions thanx everyone....
Blog Ya Lata peeps
Toddlez everyone

~Babygurl Luvs Y@~
       *huh hug kiss kiss*
                          Prancer
                                                         `SSDD`

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Sunday, July 18, 2004

Summa days, Summa nites, Summa life, Summa fights, Summa laughs, and Summa crys

ok so where to start>>>ok so besides pointing out the flipping obvious>>>

SKEWLS OUT AND SUMMAS IN>>>HELL YA!!!

PARTIES>>>SUMMA FUN>>>DRINKIN>>>SK8ING>>>BIKING>>SINGIN>>WRITIN>
>>CHILLAXIN>>>AND MEETING NEW PEOPLE!!!!!

So what hell yea>>>and like out so lets recount as to what has happened since skewl
has let out>>ok so skewl let out>>yes>>>i took som exams>>which btw i did not pass
any lmao>>>due to reasons beyond mi control(to which i owe to the 1-800-PARTS-R-US
group in Barcewell's english class where mi free will has been left) As for english>>>
everyone here shod knoe that crack piped coon lady who claims to be an english teacher
>>well im thrilled if what i heard is tru>>i heard she isnt supposed to be there next year>>>
BOO YAH!!! because lemme tell u this>>if she had of been there next year then i would
use Tampons instead of Pads>>>trust me it prolly woodve worked betta too>>>
(long story>>which starts with mi mags>>>and ends with mi pads and a very VERY
surprised class and teacher for that matta)>>thou i was going to transfer skewls>>
YET AGAIN>>>i will prolly most likely still eb atteneding PF>>>OD, well i have to many
fuckin ex's there>>>Park well>>>Park is Park and that there is pretty much self
explainitory(bad spelling skills yes i knoe) and Twin>>well i heard from a few people
who there that apparently they lock the doors so you cant skip>>what a fuckin rip
eh>>thou i am unsure as to if those conclusions are correct, i still dunno>>>and
beside PF is rite by the all and everything else>>>so im still in a large fog as to all that>>
ok so next on the list>>>lol>>>o yes>i went away for a week>>>very fun>>>lmao>>>
o and guess what>>i own a bathing suit now eh>>>yea longest time since>>>o i
think is was back in like g6 or sumthin>>>but unfortunatly i was at mi cuzin's swimmin
in the pool and forgot to reapply the sun screen and yea i got burnt>>and i mean
REALLI BURNT>>>ok well lets put it this way>>>im a very fair skinned person>>>
ok>>ok im forgettin who im talkin to>>lets put it in an easier term to understand>>>
ok>>>well>>>lets say im vanilla ice cream>>>well it got so bad that at first i looked
like vanilla ice cream drowned in strawberry sauce>>>then it got worse so i looked
like strawberry ice cream drowned in strawberry sauce>>>ok>>and it was painful
>>>(damn now i have a craving for ice cream>>>wait>>>no nevermind>>>lol>>>do
you realize how fattening ice cream can be?)
Actually do you realize how fattening any food we eat today is? Well, i figured out
the perfect way to keep a nice bod>>>for me>>>its bikin 2 hrs a day>>>swimmin
almost everyday at the beach>>>i started skateboardin again>>im gettin new blades
>>and Liz said she wood teach me how to play tennis(GO TEAM ME!!!!!!!!) and
eating the very minimal amout food nessisary(sry ima bad spella)...but hey its
helped>>me>>>i mean so to all you fuckers who have called me fat>>>plump>>
ir chunky>>>well why not take a look at this and re-evaluate wont you?
i mean you can juss see the rolls hang over mi bathing suit cant you everyone>>>

o yes i am such a fat peice of
shit now arent i>>>
OK anyways back to the main discussion>>>ok>>>o yea>>>wen i got back from mi
lil one week getaway, we moved outta that shit hole>>HELL YA!!!!
As i worded it to Trinket>>>haha mi room has cats on the boarder>>but not juss
any cats>>>there POLKA DOTTED CATS!!!! *nods* HELL YA!!!
Oh and for very minor news>>>yes Stevie and I got into a huge fight>>>and that
guy had to get Paul up here again>>>but alls good i guess>>or at least was>>>
at first it was a game of hide and seek>>but now Paul>>the hunter becomes the
Hunted>>>trust me you made a huge mistake!>>>see its ok when its juss me>>>
but when you bring mi friends into it>>>you're askin for a fuckin death wish
man!!!! SO toodlez to you Paul>>because while you're looking for me>>>IM LOOKING
FOR YOU>>and trust me it aint gonna pretty either>>>well i'll be but you wont>>>
lmbfao>>HAHA HELL YA!!
O and im getting into singin and writin again too eh lol>>>juss never sing while
you're drunk>>thou i did seem to get a great recording from it lmao>>>next time
any of you's are online ill send the files to you and you can tell me wut ya think!!!
HAHA but have you ever tried dancing and singin while takin a pic...haha>>
well i was caught off gaurd>>well realli i was goofin around>>>
lol and to top that off apparently i have a bar look to>>>i mean if i wear
a certain outift then apparently it looks like i walk out of a bar>>i mean i
dunt see it but hey no ones perfect rite?

well at the end of the entry ill add in some more pix>>>mehb that'll help>>>
ok>>>so wut else>>o ya Hunta is mad at me>>>i dunno how many more people
are mad at me, so like im gonna be keepin quiet for a bit and well yea>>>
so talkin online, and readin mi blog is the most conversation that you will have
with me!!! Yup yup!

Haha omg and ya>>>did i tell you lmao>>apparently i shood be a model now to eh>
lmao>>yea rite me?hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
ahahahahahaha
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
hahahahahahaha>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>wait>>>>>>>>
*thinks of possibilities*
ooooooo that wood make some cash>>>ooooo shoppin spree's>>>hmmmm not
a bad idea now that i look at it>>lmao
Odg, ok i was at the mall the other day>>>and juss to see what ppl think>>>im

gonna buy a pink mini skirt, complete with a pair of either black boots and a
black mesh tank>>>or white tennis shoes and a v-neck prep like tank>>>lol>
>can anyone picture that? lmao

um yea there was a whole bunch more i juss typed but mi fuckin comp had to
shut down on me>>>>juss fuckin had to!!!!

basically i was tellin ya bout the time mi bro dad n i went shoppin n mi bro n i
had a cheese war n were makin music wit packages of food and cans aswell>>>
i told you how i had found 4 of the greatest songs eva
Firefly
Hi and Goodbye
I Wish it Could be Christmas Everyday
Pefect Match

and i was tell ya bout the whole bra thing mi dad was sayin while we were at
IGA: some dudes were checkin me out, mi dad came ooout n said how liked it
better when i wore mi bras rather than mi swim suit or now bras bc as he
worded mi bras
(i wear sports btw) he called them "Squish Me Ins">>>and i thot and still think
its funny but not so much at the moment coz im pissed

i was sayin how mi dad came out and was eating behind mi back>>thou im
hungry but im not and cant get any sleep>>and he chews realli loud>>>so i have
to listen to music and such to block out the sound of chips being chewed>>coz
it only makes mi stomache growl yet im not hungry>>>if that makes any sence>>>
o and how i met some realli cure skateboarders the other day only coz im one
of the only chicks who skateboard(that they knoe of) and it s realli funny>>>
O and how imso fricken happy rite now>> coz im goin up to visit hunta and
everyone(Tye is so gonna get his ass kicked) and IM GONNA GET TO SEE
HANNAH EVERYONE>>>>IM SO HAPPY>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>but the
again im so sad all at the same time
*tears*
I MISS HAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well it doesnt look like i have room for any more pix, so what im gonna do is make a
diff blog with all pix kk
Toodlez and Adieu everyone

                                                  "SSDD"
Prancer
                                                                        Firefly

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Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Summer So Soon??????

ok ya ya i knoe its bin a while since ive updated>>>> give a gurl a break wouldnt ya>>>anywhoo ye>>>wuzz new wuzz new? o i have 3 stalkers, i havent the faintest as to wut im doin this summa, um kels joann n i startin a band called>>> "Phoenix Flames", im worried sick bout stevie coz he wuzz supposed te call on sunday n he dint, and wuts worryin me is that sat nite a tornado set down in erin and thas where he lives so i guess u can kinda see why im freakin>>>>o ova the weekend i saw terri and everyone and ye like i said before, Terri the jelly is suppossed to go in your mouth not in your nose and Theo stop encouraging her>>>Terri....Clay it wuzz great singin w/ u 2 again, i slept ova at mi cuzins for 2 nites....omg such fun>>> HARRY HOTTER EH CUZZ?!? LMBFOA....oh and wutever tickles your pickle rite? lol>>>>and well yesterday, i called Amber and we talked until someone called fr mi dad so i told her i woold call her back, well i tried callin her back n there wuzz no ansa>>PICK UP YOUR PHONE POOKY>>>um....o then ofcourse i called Kristie(i so hope u can come up this summa for a while itd be awsomely great hun, n itd be like old time....just we wont be in brownies anymore....wishy washy wishy washy wishy washy woo eh kris? lol) but i wuzz talkin to her on the phone n she wuzz like theres only 12 days till skools out and im like wut n shes like ye so n so is when mi skewl gets out n im like...huh? and shes like Donna....its may, actually hun its the end of may almost june! and i wuzz like WUT!!!!!!!!! OMG I SO GOTTA START DOIN MA SKEWL WORK!!! and she juss said ya donna ya shood, but then i had to go lol, and to top all that off on sun nite i went to eat w/ mi gp's and i went to the bathroom, and some chick wuzz in there n i was waitin wen all of a sudden i heard the funniest thing ever...she takin a piss>>>normal so far, well then she let out this tiny fart followed by a sound that sounded like sumone goin weeeee, it wuzz so fuckin funni omg lol i still laugh at it lol. O and mi house flooded lol, i have te wea mi shoes constantly coz r house is carpet lol....its a graphic novel eh zuki? ya rite n secretly im gettin srtaight A's....i wish. o well lol im runnin outta things to say lol....um how bout...well thas bout it for now....lol....um bye?
Have fun till next time ppl
Babygurl says: Luv Ya---Peace----*wink wink nudge nudge* lol jk
                       Adieu till next time ppl
         Prancer
                   'SSDD'

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Wednesday, April 21, 2004

Heart Aches

I'm all alone in this world of mine,
I lost someone,
so dear to my heart.
If it was wasnt for my stupidity,
and my sudden out-bursts,
then maybe things wouldnt be so bad.
But now im lost and alone in the world,
with tears streaming down mi face.
I braken up with my man,
and isolating mi self from tha world,
so theres no more pain to be felt.

Why does everyone

o dang writers block! meh maybe it'll come to me....think....think...nope but ill try and finish it lata 2nite
~Prancer~
`SSDD'

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Tuesday, April 20, 2004

When Life Comes To A Fucking End

Friends? Right, like im going for that ever again! And as for trust? No one ever again . . .thats like why i never trusted anyone before . . .goes to show u should stick with tradition . . .and with tradition i shall stick! No what i dunt give a flying fuck anymore, im in such a depressed mood that if it werent for tina then i wouldnt even be writing this right now . . . oh well guess u cant win em all can u . . . and i have a q 4 u all.
WHAT TO DO:
waddaya do when u tell ur so called best friend tells a secret that only she knoes about, to ppl, then uses so wrongly towards u and makes u cry so much that when u go to ur friends house u wear sunglasses, and ur srtill crying as u write this but at the same time of depression ur filled with raged anger?
waddaya do when her bf, whom she told that secret to says something just as bad in regards to it and has u crying even harder?
waddaya do that because of this u wanna break up with ur bf because u want some alone time, time to think everything thru and figure things out?
waddaya do when ur bound to keeping promises because thru ur whole life uv been lied to that u dont wanna be like that so u keep all ur promises, and because of that u cant kill urself bc u promised that same friend who betrayed u that u wouldnt?

and;

waddaya do when u blame urself for all of this shit , and u knoe for a fact that this person is blamming u aswell, taking absolute no responsibility for it wat so ever when she was the real cause, but i have to admit that if i hadnt been so . . .grrrr . . . .and hadnt said some of the things i did then things wouldnt be as bad, but still if she hadnt been playin stupid games behind mi back then this wouldnt have even started . . .yeah happy bday to me . . .im turning 16 soon and all this shit on top of everything else is happening . . .i hate it, i hate it i hate!
waddaya do when u cant stop crying? I DONT CRY!!! ITS NOT WHO I AM!!! but that hurt and now i knoe how hannah felt and if she was still alive i would do everything in mi power to make sure she never felt that pain ever again, its worse then going thru it, and i really hate miself for sayin what i said to han, and i guess thank chantelle for showing me what han felt like and how watchin wat u say is extremly important . . .thanx for that.

OK so now its rate the friends . . . .for all of u who read this . . .wat do u think i should do with these so called friends of mine . . .and what kind of so called friends are these? id luv to hear what u have to say, and maybe itll stop the tears for a bit . .

~Prancer~
'SSDD'

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