!!!!!HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY HUNTER!!!!!
Ok so I have made alot of mistakes in my life...but do you ever realize that its not after those mistakes are made that you regret them...its after time has passed by, doesnt have an actual timeline as to when it passes by, but its shortly after some time has passed. It actually wasn't until today that I realized that...sadly it was while I was on the bus downtown to Marvel to get my hair done for semi tonight....which is rather depressing. But mistakes...Im not really quite positive as to what they can be classifyed as...good or bad...I mean you learn from them sure, but are they ever really good...coz...mistakes are well...mistakes. But with mistakes, can any of them ever be forgiven, from the simplest of simple mistakes to the largest or large mistakes. Can they ever be fully forgiven, or is it a burden one must live with for the duration of their lives? I mean, mistakes aren't intentional, so then why hold it against a person...but some i guess mistakes are intentionally planned, but end up back firing in the planners face causing it to end up a mistake...I mean what do you say to a person like that? Sure you can stay mad at them forever, or you can easily forgive them, but either way it's never going to leave that person's mind as to what happened. It just won't happen, no matter how much you pray or how hard you try to correct your wrong doing or even how much you wish, that "mistake" is always going to stay with all those peoples, through out your life and theirs. So how do you correct your wrong doing...sure you can admit to it, but alot of the times, I find it just makes problems elasticize (grow bigger) and there is almost no point it hoping things will be fine again....so how would you go about correcting your problems/ "mistakes" without the admitting wrong doing to elasticize your problem. Im it seems like I am rambling on about worthless nothingness to some of you, but everyone will come to a point in their lives where this topic will eventually pop up into existance, and wouldn't it be better to know what to do when it does rather than to know nothing about it at all? Would it not help any to have at least some knowledge on the particular topic at hand rather than sit there and have no knowledge what so ever and in the process of correcting your "mistake", you happen to make another and by doing that you have your problem elasticize.....it is just a wonder, but its also a question, and its one most people dpn't have the answer to, and if they do, its just to late for them to act upon it, bcoz things will be to deep for you to uncover and get a solution for....
But back to the main topic...how would you go about correcting a "mistake" (or in other cases and sometimes in my own case) "mistakes" without revealing the causing problem and your wrong doings that lead up to the "mistake/mistakes" that may make things? Is it better just to go on with life and carry this burden with you, knowing that you never told those how you felt or about it...I mean you can go like that but is it logical to carry on like that? Is it logical to act as though nothing has happened and live life with the burden of what you've done knowing things could've worked out for the best but because of your invulnerability and lack of courage & self esteem, you just paraded though all that, maybe hoping things will get better?
In my case, its a mix of both of those scenes..sure I'll do most anything thr first time, and I'll tell of authority figures and what not, but it takes ALOT of courage to admit the wrong of something...how does someone over come past experiences of making things worse by admitting "mistakes"? Is it at all possible to apologize for something you HAVE said or done, with out actaully saying what u said or did???
Thats actually one question that keeps lingering in my head, day in and day out but it one question i have yet to find an answer for...any ideas from anyone would be greatly appreciated...anyways Travis is here, so I'd better jet for the time being so we both can get ready for semi and my brother can ofcourse get some time online...
So please, everyone and everyone, leave answers, comments even past experiences and ideas, it would help out a great deal.
INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Bold the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don’t bold is false.
01. I miss somebody right now.
02. I don’t watch much TV these days.
03. I love olives.
04. I love sleeping.
05. I own lots of books
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
07. I love to play video games.
08. I have tried marijuana.
09. I have seen at least one porn movie.
10. I have been in a threesome.
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
12. I believe honesty is >>usually<< the best policy.
13. I have acne free skin.
14. I like & respect Al Sharpton.
15. I curse frequently.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have a hobby.
18. I have been told I: have an applebottom(women) or am packing(men).
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
20. I am really, really smart.(in different subjects)
21. I have never broken someone’s bones.
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
23. I hate the rain.
24. I am paranoid at times.
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, & scar-free.
26. I need money right now!
27. I love Sushi.
28. I talk really, really fast [sometimes].
29. I have fresh breath in the morning.(after i brusth them)
30. I have semi-long hair.(possibly...)
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
32. I have at least one brother &/or one sister.
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I shave my legs(females) or face(males) on a regular basis.
35. I have a twin.
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
37. I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look sometimes.
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last six months.
40. I know how to cornrow.
41. I am usually pessimistic.
42. I have a lot of mood swings.
43. I think prostitution should be legalized.
44. I think Britney Spears is hot.
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past.
46. I have a hidden talent.
47. I am always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
48.I think that I’m popular.
49. I am currently single.
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex.(haha long story behind that lol)
51. I enjoy talking on the phone.
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
53. I love to shop.(when I have money)
54. I would rather shop than eat.
55. I would classify myself as ghetto.
56. I am bourgie & have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
57. I am obsessed with my livejournal.
58. I don’t hate anyone. I dislike them.
59. I am a pretty good dancer.( i used to take dance so yea...lol)
60. I don’t think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
61. I am completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
62. I have a cell phone.
63. I believe in [a] God.
64. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
65. I have passed out drunk in the past six months.
66. I love drama.
67. I have never been in a real relationship before.
68. I have rejected someone before.
69. I currently have a crush on someone.
70. I have no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life.
71. I want to have children in the future.
72. I have changed a diaper before.
73. I have called the cops on a friend before.
74. I bite my nails.
75. I am a member of the Tom Green Fan Club.
76. I am not allergic to anything.
77. I have a lot to learn.
78. I have dated someone at least ten years older or younger.
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube’s newest "Friday" movie.
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex sometimes.
81. I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
82. I have at least five away messages saved.
83. I have tried alcohol before.
84. I have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past.
85. I own the "South Park" movie.
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on livejournal.
87. When I was a kid I played "the birds & the bees" with a neighbor or friend.
88. I enjoy some country music.
89. I would die for my [real] best friends.
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
92. I am [sometimes] obsessive, anal retentive, & a perfectionist.
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals & all.
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick’s "Children’s Story".
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants & I like it.
98. I have dated a close friend’s ex.
99. I have cut myself before.
100. I am happy at this moment.
Lotsa Love All
xox Toodlez Hun xox
'SSDD'
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---Donna--- ===D-Lux===